interests

Here's some things I like to do:
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-Chess (It's fun) there's a chess website I used called chess hotel
as Tanx
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Games played 296
Won games 121
Lost games 171
Draws 4
Rank 1302
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Tanx is the username I started under, I got progressively better and then I made Chrile, so Tanx includes my learning process games, while chrile has less of those.


and my second username chrile
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Games played 95
Won games 49
Lost games 44
Draws 2
Rank 1515
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you start with a elo rank of 1200
chrile's is high because I play against players who have a higher elo then I do. so if I lose, I'll lose less points, but if I win I'll gain more, but the opponents will be more difficult
I personal enjoy chess, since it makes you think. Chess Hotel is an online chess game against other players, It's the best chess site I know of.
-puzzles (every once in awhile, I like the 3d ones more)
-cards (euchre, hearts, spades [those type of card games])
-origami (even put some in my grandma, and grandpa's caskets at their funerals, my way of saying goodbye)
-thinking (I like thinking out loud as well)
-figuring out how things work (I killed a computer once... my dad was not too happy about that *chris rubs the back of his neck, while smiling sheepishly*
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I also kinda like the website http://www.sporcle.com/
It's a site with quizzes relating to science, math, geography, ect.

While my dad gets into the sports teams, I know how they do, but for the most part I never really watch them, much. I've sometimes wondered how much better the world would be if most people (those that do get into the sports teams) would cut the time they watch them in half.

The thing I really wish would be cut out of sports are those "fantasy teams", now that's a bad waste of time, and relatively pointless. I may watch say 4-8 complete football games a year (that includes college football as well). That's basically all I watch, somewhat with intrest. I really admired Ohio state football coach Jim tressel, but after the violations I'm not sure what to think. Before that I admired the Christian example he set.

I also know I don't particularly like the downtown city, way too many people, and cars, and hardly any nature at all. I love nature, his creation is so much better then whatever we try to replace it with. That's why I love Lake hope, you have your family, and nature, and the tv, but we only used that at night, the rest of the time we were outside the cabin, enjoying nature. I loved every minute of it. I also enjoyed the car ride there, watching the land go by. Spring, and fall are the best times to go.

I could also see myself in the distant future living somewhere surrounded by nature... Now that would be great.

on a completely separate note I think Spring is the best season.

and even more random... I wonder when my praying mantises will hatch. I love them, they're so neat. Though raising one from nymph to adulthood can be tiresome. It can be difficult to get food for the little ones. I remember when I used to go into thorns to search for the eggsacks, that was fun... I still don't know what in the world possessed me to dress in a tank-top and shorts one year when I went to search for them. I always made sure I left at least four. This terrain was perfect for them so I could always count on many surviving to adulthood. I can't do this anymore due to the fact that this terrain was turned into storage... it made me sad, and a bit upset when I learned that a few years back, now I have to order them. This could be my last year raising them for awhile, and the last two years I've failed to raise one to adulthood. But, last year the mantid just failed his final molt, which was quite frustrating, but it happens. I've seen my share of funny praying mantis' though. I also got one to mate one time, and the male didn't get turned into lunch for the female. fortunately for him. I also got one to last until Christmas one year. It died the next day though.

as a side note: my eyes are continuing to lose their focus, and it's getting a bit annoying, and it's only 3:41 PM...

May 13 A day I'll cherish

I'm not exactly ready to discuss what exactly happened from after I got a haircut until I played bzflag that night. I'll just say that I finally did what was right. Something I struggled with for over 2 years, and was easily trapped in. I survived my weakness, where I most commonly fall to it, and Thank The lord, I was able to destroy a huge part of it. If you knew what it was you wouldn't think it was that big, until you realize what I destroyed was it's physical symbol to me personally. It took one whole hour to destroy, and I even used that weak place to destroy it's symbol. It was the most grueling hour I've ever experienced. If I had not been praying/ reciting Eph. 6:10-13 I would have easily fallen when I was in my weak place. I've never been tempted like I was in that hour span, and there's no way I could survive it without God. I had to basically cry out to him much of the time, It's obvious to me the evil one was extremely determined to keep me trapped. Even though it's yet to be seen whether I can continue to resist it, it feels like this gigantic weight is gone, and even now I can still feel the holy spirit. I did what God told me to do, no matter what "he" used to try and stop me, including people, my want to just stop and play bzflag, doubt, the reason I fell for this to begin with, shame, and everything imaginable he didn't budge me. He can't trump the fact I was doing this because God wanted me to. Without this baggage (symbol) it's like it's gone, which makes it easier to resist, but I need to be aware that this could get me in trouble.

Eph 6:10-13 is a verse I actually just memorized on May 13 for bible (which I had to write May 13th as well. I procrastinated :)
here it is from memory, which should be very accurate after repeating so many times yesterday

"be strong in the Lord and his mighty power. Put on the full armour of God so that you can take your stand against the devil's schemes. For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the ruler, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world, and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. Therefore, put on the full armour of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after everything has been done, to stand"

This verse was perfect for what I went though in my time in the desert.(the event above.)

It made the Afterparty, so much more enjoyable, knowing that with God I had taken a Giant leap toward being Free! It was great! One of the best days of the year. I hope this was the end of it, the end of my biggest obstacle in my life so far. I hate what I did, but it's done, I can't change it, I have to move on, otherwise I could fall back to where I was.

Why am I writing this? Actually I don't feel comfortable writing this, but I think by finally telling someone, I can get over it, it's a step toward freedom, telling someone can relieve a lot from the soul. I feel it's right. and I feel like I did yesterday after I destoryed it, just by writing this. Plus what chance do I have when I'm the only one that knows this is a huge problem in my life (my parents know a little but I don't think they realize how bad it really is). So basically No One knows it's as bad as I'm writing here. Maybe that's a reason why I kept getting stuck. No accounatbility. I feel relieved, and it almost doesn't even feel like I've been up all night, because of this. I still feel tired though. lol Thank God

- Chris