I always had the question, why God couldn't take us as we are, why it had to be the way it was, but I get it now.

God is good, what he is not, is evil. evil is what God is not. Now we were given the ability to chose, now in order to have the ability to chose, there has to be multiple things to chose from. Good and evil. evil is the other choice. Now since we've all sinned, we have been tainted, and how can God accept us, when we contain stuff that is not of him. All of the stuff within us that is not of him, must be taken out, before he can accept us. If he accepted us as we were, he would be accepting what he is not, which is evil, but he cannot do this because in order to do this, he would have to accept us, accept evil, accept what he is not, as what he wants. But this cannot be, which makes a whole lot more sense to me now.

If we didn't have a choice, we never would do evil, the ability to do evil is a result of choice...

I'm glad I separated silvette's 6, since all of them died, sadly.

Oh I'm really enjoying reading "Mere Christianity" by C.S. Lewis. I think I realize why things are the way that they are (why we need Jesus' sacrifice on the cross in order to be with God)

Vale jauzi, vale.

(goodbye jauzi, goodbye).

found him barely cling to life, last night, the females live longer, once I had one until Christmas. Two remain

I scored a goal, and I can't wait until the next one, I have a total of 34 baby gups

28 from sunset, 6 from silvette.

Jauzi seems to be the best flyer of the three mantises. Fall is approaching, as the temperature can tell, as well as some trees are starting to change colors.

oh my

I was actually surprised how this turned out, I only worked on it this week, two days less then the rest of our art class, though some got done early. This is probably my best drawing yet. geez!, I didn't know I could draw like that. This was the first project for art, I' pleasantly surprised at the results. I might put some more into it, but not much more.

one that doesn't involve me for once.

but before that I remembered a shirt dad has worn. "live so the pastor doesn't have to lie at your funeral"

I came up with this (from that): "Live so that your body is the only thing that will need make-up"

It dart forward
never bored
glowing bright
with reflected light

it wears them proud
without a shroud
it moves around
without a sound

it moves with pace
flowing with grace
always aware
with it's stare

suddenly it bolts away
like a ray
colors flash by
then they subside

and I'm shown
that I'm alone

another one

The fly and the web
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There was a web up in the sky
and in it was a fly
it was wound up tight
about to recieve a spider's bite

all he had to do was wait
for death had him on it's slate

Then out of the blue!
it come not too soon!
From up in the sky!
Freedom came to the fly!

up up up! went the fly
up it went into the sky
it still soars in the sky
Since it did not die

Soon time went by
then came along another fly
but the fly didn't stay away!

for he went in the web's path
and the spider showed his wrath
nothing came to save him
and his life went dim
Never again to take flight
Eyes never to shine bright

and this fly passed away
Never again to see the day
leaving one fly to ponder why
he was the one not to die.