I had dream last night about senior night, in which we won 17-0, and I scored 4 goals. In actuality we won 10-0 and I scored with 30 seconds left, I was overjoyed, my feeling of building sadness, gave way to joy. Personally at the time I did not think I was going to score, but I believed it anyways, teammates encouraging me. and I thought that was to be the high point of the day but no, I got quite a surprise, by meeting someone I've been chatting to for sometime. I was in disbelief, and when I get into disbelief I look away, walk in a different direction, and look again to make sure what I saw was in fact real. The possibility of something like this crossed my mind, but I said to myself "that's crazy, that would never happen, so stop thinking about it".

Today was far better then my dream, even though I didn't score 4 goals, that surprise was well worth it. It's beyond words, to describe the day. How about Fantastic, Happiest, best day of the year :D

one mantis remains, Sprout is the very last one. I can't believe it's fall already...

I always had the question, why God couldn't take us as we are, why it had to be the way it was, but I get it now.

God is good, what he is not, is evil. evil is what God is not. Now we were given the ability to chose, now in order to have the ability to chose, there has to be multiple things to chose from. Good and evil. evil is the other choice. Now since we've all sinned, we have been tainted, and how can God accept us, when we contain stuff that is not of him. All of the stuff within us that is not of him, must be taken out, before he can accept us. If he accepted us as we were, he would be accepting what he is not, which is evil, but he cannot do this because in order to do this, he would have to accept us, accept evil, accept what he is not, as what he wants. But this cannot be, which makes a whole lot more sense to me now.

If we didn't have a choice, we never would do evil, the ability to do evil is a result of choice...

I'm glad I separated silvette's 6, since all of them died, sadly.

Oh I'm really enjoying reading "Mere Christianity" by C.S. Lewis. I think I realize why things are the way that they are (why we need Jesus' sacrifice on the cross in order to be with God)

Vale jauzi, vale.

(goodbye jauzi, goodbye).

found him barely cling to life, last night, the females live longer, once I had one until Christmas. Two remain

I scored a goal, and I can't wait until the next one, I have a total of 34 baby gups

28 from sunset, 6 from silvette.

Jauzi seems to be the best flyer of the three mantises. Fall is approaching, as the temperature can tell, as well as some trees are starting to change colors.

oh my

I was actually surprised how this turned out, I only worked on it this week, two days less then the rest of our art class, though some got done early. This is probably my best drawing yet. geez!, I didn't know I could draw like that. This was the first project for art, I' pleasantly surprised at the results. I might put some more into it, but not much more.